Fuck me. It’s two am and I’m wide awake. Only I’m not. My brain is going a million miles an hour but my eyes are so heavy. The thing is, every time I close them my mind races even faster. So I’m writing. On my phone. At two friggin am. Grrrr.
Normally I take melatonin to combat my bouts of insomnia but I thought I was tired enough to sleep without it. Yeah. Not so much.
Melatonin helps me sleep by making the sleepy factor outweigh the brain won’t shut the fuck up factor. For those of you who are unfamiliar with melatonin, it’s a natural sleep aid that encourages the body to relax. It naturally occurs in.. guess what.. turkey! Now those Thanksgiving day naps make sense, don’t they? It’s not always effective for everyone, just like any other medication, but it works wonders for me as I don’t do well with most sleep aids. But I need to take it when I know I can get 6-8 hours of sleep. And I need to be up at 6 am. Four hours from now. Soooo if I take it now, I won’t be able to wake up on time. Not cool.
I have kiddos to get to school, an appointment to get to, an English project to finish, two papers to write, and a math test to do some last min cramming for before I actually take the test at 2 pm. Oh, I have to eat in there somewhere too.
Screw what I said earlier about worrying about being on break. I need a break if for no other reason than to catch up on sleep. I think I’ll allow myself two days of being a lump before I get on with my to do list. I deserve it.